Last night

[meirwen_1988]

Friends. Bless them. And thank the heavens for them.
theboomboom called. Then after we hung up she called Alheidis, who drove the 30 miles from Norwich and held me until Duchezz got home. Then she took my girl home with her, to the kindness of a vet who understands that more is needed than handing them a check and getting a paper box in return.
hundmathr called from his sickbed. I couldn't talk long, but his voice was a hand reaching out in the darkness.
dicea spoke words of love, that helped me face the first long night without my puppy beside me, snuffling as she slept--alone in the too wide bed, empty of the strong freckled arms that used to hold me.

And so, here I am. The night did not take me. This will not break me. But I am cracked, and ragged, and do not recognize myself anymore.

I am at the point where I fear the best I can hope for is that like that little isle in the Atlantic, after violence, I will be "All changed, changed utterly: A terrible beauty is born."

Comments

[unadesaintluc.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[fiannaharpar.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I keep praying for you.

[alricthemad.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you both

[patrikia.livejournal.com]

Love and hugs from here. I am so very, very sorry.

[mister-robinson.livejournal.com]

I really like Penelope.

Some time soon there should be grilled food and ping pong.

[meirwen.livejournal.com]

Yes.

[mister-robinson.livejournal.com]

i have a wonderful marinade now.

[briony530.livejournal.com]

*many hugs*

[sillyviking.livejournal.com]

sigh. There are sometimes when I look at the supreme being in question and ask, "Ok. Just what you trying to tell me?"

And then there are times when I want to say, "Enough already!"

And then, when I'm really not in a good place, I some times say, "Merciful and compassionate? You? Oh please, be merciful and compassionate with someone else. I've had my fill."

I'm sorry.

[ariannawyn.livejournal.com]

My heart sank when I saw your post last night, and I thought of the complete and utter unfairness of it all.

Your pain must be very deep. I am truly sorry, and I wish I could give you more help than mere words.

Words being all I have, please believe this, though it seems inconceivable now: there is light, someday you will come out of the darkness to the other side, and while you may not be who you were, yet you will still be yourself, able to give love and receive love and take joy in the world.

*hugs*

[jlbooth76.livejournal.com]

{hugs and tears and more hugs}

[dwolfhunter.livejournal.com]

I just logged on to LJ and read the post regarding Penelope. I haven't the words to say how much I feel for you. I can only you from a distance and pray that she runs in green fields with all her doggie friends.
Julie sends he condolences as well...she was speechless when I told her.

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[nightfalljen.livejournal.com]

Love from Rian and I...

[baronsteffan.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

[unique_name_123]

I can not pretend to understand why this is happening or what greater purpose it can possibly have. My thoughts are with you.

[goodscagirl.livejournal.com]

Big hugs from down here - she was a good girl.

[visrose.livejournal.com]

I'm glad we could be there for you in the capacity we did. I only wish we could give you more.

[annaeisenkopf.livejournal.com]

hugs from us on this side of the kingdom

[ostgardraine.livejournal.com]

love you, gentle hugs

[mg4h.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. All I want to say is, "It's not fair," but when has that ever stopped anything?

*HUG*

[janeelliot.livejournal.com]

Hugs from Pierre & me.

[gwendolynbasing.livejournal.com]

Hugs to you both from Rod & me.

[lyonessnyc.livejournal.com]

Many hugs and much love from this end of the universe.

[portiastluke.livejournal.com]

Strength and comfort to all of you: you, the Bunny-Duchezz, and Ping...

[lynalar.livejournal.com]

After a busy few days I've managed to spend some time online and my heart just sunk when I read about this. I am so sorry.