September 23 to October 23

[meirwen_1988]

The essential wrongness of the universe is tearing at me in places and ways I cannot seem to touch or bandage or heal.

He is supposed to be here.

Comments

[fiannaharpar.livejournal.com]

*offers tea and a hand to hold*

[alricthemad.livejournal.com]

Hugs for both you and the Duchezz

[papaboris.livejournal.com]

I can offer no words ,but be here for hugs when you want them

[sleepyunicorn.livejournal.com]

It's a horrible feeling of having a hole in me, in my whole life. It overcomes at the worst times.
Knowing how much, much worse it must be for you & Rowan, and knowing I can't help, I still offer you my hand and my hugs.
We cannot replace his support for any of us, but all of us together can still hold.

[briony530.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[theboomboom.livejournal.com]

Yes he is.

I love you.

[sillyviking.livejournal.com]

Good vibrations sent.

[nightfalljen.livejournal.com]

Yes.

Love to you both...

[ariannawyn.livejournal.com]

You are hitting one of the hardest parts right now. Enough time has passed that the rest of the world has moved on, but you are still raw and bleeding and cannot. It's hard to understand how other people can continue with their lives as if everything was normal when you know that the universe has fundamentally changed in a hideous way. You want to scream, can't they see it? Are they blind? Don't they understand that the main pillar of your world has been torn away?

It's no consolation to know that things will get better eventually, because you are stuck in "now". But if it's helpful, grasp at that straw, however flimsy it is, and believe it if you can bring yourself to do so.

I wish I had more to give than virtual hugs.

[ostgardraine.livejournal.com]

HUGS!

[unique_name_123]

I sorry that we can not do more. He is supposed to be here, and it is wrong. And we are poor subsitutes for the one who would be the most comfort to you in difficult times. All I can do is send you my love and friendship.

[lrstrobel.livejournal.com]

Hugs to you and Duchezz, may strength and peace and love and joy be yours.

[goodscagirl.livejournal.com]

Big hugs to you all. I really have no words.

[mg4h.livejournal.com]

Being a control freak, I fully understand the wish to fix things I can't. I wish things were not as they were now.

*HUG*

[baronalonzio.livejournal.com]

*heavy sigh* and a big hug from me and mine
I do wish there was more we could do.

[baronsteffan.livejournal.com]

Yep, what she said.

*HUGS* to both of you.

[ladybriant.livejournal.com]

I wish greatly that I could offer words to help - but I have none. All I can offer is my friendship and willingness to hold your hands, and help as I may.

[baronernst.livejournal.com]

I was heralding EK Coronation the weekend of the funeral and found myself unexpectedly reading the Rolls of Kings and Queens of the East. When I came to his name I choked and just couldn't continue.

It does no good to tell you that some of us understand your pain and feel your loss or even that some of us have been through it, too. The pain doesn't really lessen, we merely learn to live with it and not let it show after a while.

Spider Robinson's mantra is that pain shared is lessened and joy shared is increased. Share it all with us and we'll do what little we can, especially from this distance, to help.

If nothing else, remember that you are dearly loved by so many, both you and Ro. Dearly, deeply and unconditionally. You have my love, my sympathy, my empathy and an open call on unlimited hugs.

[herooftheage.livejournal.com]

Sadly, the universe isn't so good with "supposed to". He is here in our hearts, which is not as good, but it's what we've got.

[jlbooth76.livejournal.com]

{hugs}

[swordandmug.livejournal.com]

You and Ro are in my prayers.

[blairya.livejournal.com]

You and Ro are constantly in my thoughts. I can imagine your pain - the wrongness of his not being where he is supposed to be. Seeing something and turning to tell him to look - only he's not there. Hearing a story and thinking "I'll have to tell him..." only you can't. Being in the house, seeing the places he's supposed to be sitting, standing, sleeping... I wish I could take some of your pain myself so you would have rest from it. All I can do for you is send love. So - Love.
I'm here if there is anything else I can do.

-Caryl

[visrose.livejournal.com]

What everyone else said, cuz there are no better words to offer.

I can offer much love and virtual hugs to you and Ro!

I am glad you are both in my life.

[damedini.livejournal.com]

I know. And it is so horrible that he isn't. I'm thinking of you all.

[kelfstein.livejournal.com]

I wish I could hold you and take some of your pain away.

[lyonessnyc.livejournal.com]

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