My heart sank when I saw your post last night, and I thought of the complete and utter unfairness of it all.

Your pain must be very deep. I am truly sorry, and I wish I could give you more help than mere words.

Words being all I have, please believe this, though it seems inconceivable now: there is light, someday you will come out of the darkness to the other side, and while you may not be who you were, yet you will still be yourself, able to give love and receive love and take joy in the world.

*hugs*